The Beauty of October
October was one for the books, from day one I felt a strong wind of new beginnings in the air. The crisp cool days and change of color and texture in the leaves made everything about October feel fresh. Typically not my one of my favorite months because of all the chaos and focus on Halloween (never been into it) but never the less I appreciate the ushering in of a season that truly invites us to slow down. I feel the perfect pause between summer and the upcoming holiday season.
Starting off the month I gathered together an intimate group of women for a morning of Match & Connection. Since returning from my summer vacation I have felt a strong desire to be in community. I felt what better way to do that then grab a matcha and catch up on life and so we found ourselves at my favorite Koreatown coffee shop Open Market.
We talked life, work, family, relationships, art, and most importantly who we are in this season. As we shared our experiences there was one commonality we were all coming out of very big life changes- from divorce, to job loss, and losing loved ones we were all eclipsing in profound ways and embarking on the other side.
It felt so great to share openly and authentically. The older I get the more I’m finding that there is deep freedom in being honest about where I am. There’s nothing that feels uncomfortable nor do I fear judgment because I know who I am and what I’m made of. For me there is nothing but love and resiliency in my vulnerability.
In this day and time we need more of this type of expression, not people telling us what to do or how to be just genuinely being in a space of acceptance, care, and support.
We all left that day feeling lighter, more present, and excited for the next time together!
I also teamed up with Zen Folks at Reach LA for Face your Fear a workshop and Soundbath experience!
I told ya’ll I don’t do Halloween but in the energy of the season we were able to borrow inspo and form it into an amazing wellness workshop that quite literally shifted us all from Fear to FAITH! It was so good!
I led us through a detoxing breathwork to remove heaviness and anxiety from the heart and then we all did a writing exercise placing our fears on paper as we let out audible sounds to release the energy.
To finish we ripped up the paper and through it in the trash not leaving one sliver of it behind. The way the energy shifted was palpable! As I type this I can feel that same energy of freedom bubbling up! It was a fantastic day of community, and bringing us back to where it all starts LOVE!
Lastly I’m so proud of my consistency and all that I’ve accomplished on the great lock in challenge. As I type this I’m on day 62 and I can’t believe how far I’ve come! This has been a fulfilling experience allowing me to see myself as dedicated, and truly willing to show up for myself when I commit.
In the past I’ve stuck to my goals and pressed through but something about this time feels different. I think it’s because when my Mom was living I wanted to prove to her that I could make it out here in this big world on my own but now I’m doing it to show myself that I can keep going in this big world on my own. I’ve come to learn life is not about proving anything to anyone people will come and go, but it’s about proving it to you the one who is here with you every single day! I thank God for what’s been put inside of me that allows me to want to keep going, keep doing, and keep becoming the best version of me.
As we head into November I’m still fired up, I’m going to keep going and doing my best! I’ve already reaped some beautiful benefits of shifting my habits, behaviors and mindset. I’m confident in this-I will finish.